Open-hearted trust in relationships - and in the flow of Life

Recently this verse has given me comfort: ‘I give this situation fully to You (God? Energy of Life? Nature? The Goddess? We get to choose who we’re appealing to). Please, please keep me open and show me the right actions. And if there isn’t currently a solution, please at least help me accept it for now and show me what I could learn from this.’

Why do I need to be saying this verse to myself? I recently started a relationship with an amazing man, which I thought was really it. I practiced what I preach – ie open-hearted trust, I let him in emotionally, we were experiencing a sexual energy between us. But I didn’t see it coming, he ended it suddenly. He was right that we weren’t actually all that suited to each other. But it was the abrupt nature of it that threw me – one minute I was part of a new and developing relationship and the next minute all those dreams were dashed.

On top of that, because of the new Covid Omicron I will probably NOT go to my immune-suppressed friend for Christmas, and with no family in this country I face the possible prospect of Christmas on my own.

Back to the verse I’ve been comforting myself with. I love it because it helps me avoid or move out of my old story of ‘I’m meant to be alone’; that old belief that comes from childhood that makes me shut down into my old inner dungeon rather than staying open and flowing both to the pain of a relationship not developing and also the fear of being on my own. And it helps! I am feeling sad, yes, a bit devastated for short bursts, afraid of being alone at Christmas – but I also can see that if I found one great partner I can find another. And that I can be creative at Christmas, maybe to find other friends/acquaintances who might have to be on their own for whatever reason and to meet up together. That could be great! And it’s good to know I am not powerless, stuck and defeated. Allowing myself to stay open is the key.

How do you support yourself to stay open to new possibilities, rather than shutting down into your old habitual reactions?